Pancreatitis and clomid!

I'm sorry it's been so long, once again... 

I'm still not pregnant, but since I started this journey... I have ovulated on my own 4 times! Which, even if no BFPs, at least things are working like they should for the most part.... 

So, on Sunday December 7,2014 Emily, Randal, Nate and I were at my apartment just hanging out...at about 6pm I started having horrible pains in my upper stomach (sternum area) , I thought maybe trapped gas? Heart burn? I wasn't entirely sure.... But I did know that whatever it was, it was getting worse by the minute. By 7pm I went to the bathroom to see if I could vomit or BM... No such luck? I blacked out in my tiny bathroom (toilet and shower are separated by a door from the actual vanity and sink part of the bathroom) and I hit the wall which in turn, notified Randal and Emily that something was up, and if anyone knows me or has was previous blogs, they know that I pass out more then the average person, but the DRs still haven't figured out why... Anyways, Emily is always the one to rain calm and take care of me and coming back to reality, week they both managed to pull me out to the vanity area, at this point the pain was so excruciating that I don't even remember much, but they got me out there and gave me water, put my legs up, and I just kept going in and out which isn't normal, even for me, so the debate happened between Emily and Randal about weather to call 911 or just get me to the car to take me to the ER. Randal and Emily then carried me to the car, and I woke up in the ER, pain had subsided because of morpgine, but immediately tests were done and without a doubt, PANCREATITIS, but why? They admitted me, So the next few days in the hospital were oh so much fun! The average lipace levels of the pancreas are 0-60...mine were 1814...they ended up detoxing me off all my medications (including metformin 😢😢😢) and by Tuesday I was finally eating solid food, and my lipace levels were back to normal range...after ultra sounds, ct scans and A LOT of blood work, since I'm not an alcoholic, or they couldn't find any full stones, the only thing it "could be" is a side effect from the MET. Which sucks. 

I was DCd on Tuesday night....with pain meds and the order of drinking more water? Answers, I love them.

Follow up appointment time! OB was already scheduled for the 16th, and we had discussed in prior, clomid was the next option...but with all of this excitement that was going on, and the fact they took me off of met, I was SURE the DR wasn't going to let me go on clomid! But I was wrong, he decided for me to stay off met and try clomid this cycle, so tomorrow is cycle day 5 and clomid day 1!!! Super excited! 

Mental health DR put me back on the Zoloft and a smaller dose of Xanax, since I can't be taking that one while pregnant, but other then that, everything is good with him.

On January 7,2015 I have an appointment with a GI specialist to follow up on the pancreatitis, I'm nervous for whatever he wants to do, but I need things to be healthy for the potential baby that will have to be spending 9 months in there. It better be healthy and comfortable!! 

I will update after clomid, and after appointments, stay tuned!  

xoxo,

LULU

influenster, what is it?

a couple of people have been asking me, "what is Influenster??" 

well to sum it up,

influenster.com is a place that sends you free products,

samples and full size of things that you may like or need

in a package called a "VoxBox"

you will receive these packages as often as 

every other month, 

depending on how active you stay on your account!

the only thing you have to do, is take a survey about the products

and share it with your friends. it's simple....and so awesome!

i've learned about a lot of my favorites through influenster,

so sign up now and start your surveys!! 

https://www.influenster.com/

4/5 dpo

If I am in fact pregnant, which I won't know until 12ish dpo, my fertilized egg in on the move! Size of a poppy seed? And I would be 2 weeks and 4 days along... Even though conception was only 4 days ago... Crossing my fingers and trying to stay positive. Ovia is an awesome app I found that actually is REAL and honest about all possible outcomes.

Keep me and poppy seed in your positive thoughts, I'm ready for a negative test but I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. 

This is not a pregnancy test!

Every month, 14 days after af day 1 I take an ovulation test... This has been a routine for me since the diagnosis of pcos! This past week I was lazy and forgot to pick up my met rx and was out of it for 3 days, then I picked it up again and started taking it like normal (1000 mg once a day)... I think by stopping it for 3 days as then going back on it without the gradual incline did something amazing! I'm ovulating! First positive opk ever!

It's faint, but that is definitely 2 lines!!!!! 

It's Vox box time again!

Excited for this #voxbox !! #DLVoxBox @influenstervox #airheadbites #penitFWD #notextred #kisslashes #deliciouslysoothing #getcubed #playon 

Super excited about the tampons, lashes, and pens! 

I reviewed all these products complimentary for the purpose of  review.

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PCOS Awareness Month!

Checking in.

Its been over a month on metformin and I just had my check up to make sure it's working.... All my labs came back awesome ;) everything is working perfectly and if everything keeps up at this pace I will start clomid in December :)  so hopefully this time next year I'll have some bigger news. I don't have to go back to the dr until 12/16 so I'm hoping there's nothing to update in between then and now!!

warning, this maybe TMI

so, i was feeling great until saturday night when i got my first period since may 20... started out fine, until i got nauseous, the bleeding got extremely heavy, and i cramped like i have never cramped before...this lasted until today (wednesday) when i couldn't handle the pain anymore. 

[sidenote: let me just add that for the last 10 years my periods have been crampy, but not awful and never heavy, nor more than 4 days.]

so anyways, today was at work and the pain became so unbearable that i literally couldn't see straight. THANK GOD my boss is a woman and kinda knows what has been going on with me the past few weeks, i told her what was happening and she told me to go home, and she even offered to take me which was very sweet. I managed to drive myself home and when i walked in the door crying contemplating if i should go to urgent care or the emergency room, if at least for a little pain relief, because i already taken 2 800 mg IBUProfen with no relief at all, my husband saw me balling. he had me call my dr who seemed pretty concerned and asked me to just come to his office which is only 3 blocks away from my house. I went to the office, got all checked in, and at this point i was getting really dizzy...the nurse took my blood pressure and she was in awe! she immediately grabbed a wheelchair and took me to a room to lay down. apparently its pretty normal for blood pressure to rise when in pain, but i'm starting to realize i may have a pretty low tolerance. to make a long story even longer, the dr came in and i got a pelvic exam, a shot of progesterone, and an rx for pain, and an rx for Provera (progesterone) to take for the next 5 days. apparently it's supposed to stop all cramping and bleeding but i may get my period again in a week or so. i finally can think straight, but i have to go back in a week to make sure my pain is "managed" and the bleeding is not as heavy if i'm even still bleeding. 

on a brighter note though, i may start clomid sooner than i thought to start ovulation to regulate everything and get things ready for the possibility of baby making :) i can't explain how grateful i am that we figured all of this out before the actual real trying to conceive happens, lesson learned is when something is off and you think your body is telling you something is wrong, take care of it, you could catch it before its too late, or prevent it from getting worse (or making you completely infertile).

Positive thoughts from here on out! not just on this topic, but life in general. 

xoxo

LULU.

2 weeks in...

it has been two weeks since i was diagnosed with PCOS and i started taking Metformin 1000 mg. I got my first AF Saturday night, and its been very very painful and heavy. i don't feel as nauseous as i did the first few days and i have almost figured out what i can and can not eat. i have lost 12 lbs! can't wait to see where this takes me! stay tuned! 

what is PCOS?

PCOS or Polycystic ovary syndrome is a condition in which a woman has an imbalance of a female sex hormones. This may lead to menstrual cycle changes, cysts in the ovaries, trouble getting pregnant, and other health changes.

some symptoms;

• infrequent, absent, and/or irregular periods
• hirsutism- which is increased hair growth
• cysts on ovaries
• acne, oily skin, dandruff
• weight gain or obesity
• baldness or thinning of hair
• dark spots or patches of skin
• pelvic pain
• anxiety
• depression
• sleep apnea
• elevated insulin and insulin resistance
• infertility
• high cholesterol
• elevated blood pressure
• dizziness
• lack of sex drive

so pretty much, 95% of these are me. how didn't we figure this out before?? today was day 1 of metformin (500mg) i felt a little nauseous, but after i ate i felt fine.looking forward to weight loss and regular periods, stay tuned!

curve ball.

story time! 

rewind 6 months ago, i got new insurance in December from my job, and i slowly but surely am making appointments with all the kinds of doctors that i need to go to, lagging on some (specifically OB) because in order to be a new patient you have to have a full exam...and let's face it no one looks forward to a pap and pelvic exam. So, finally after 6 months of putting it off, and after numerous dr visits to urgent care, physciatrist, neurologist, general physician for all my health issues;  ie stomach pain, dizziness, blood pressure, so on and so forth etc etc...i get the full exam and he sends me to get lab work, i think nothing of it really, i know i've always had irregular periods but i honestly thought it was just from being overweight... 10 days pass and i go back for the results to all the tests and exams...

i have PCOS...

never did i think that this could be a possibility, 

never did i think it would be ME. but it is,

and i'm about to embark on this "journey to healthy"

which eventually, should lead to "journey to baby"

The news was devastating, and though I am still filled with sadness, I know in my heart that with time, a few life style changes, medications, the treatment plan of my amazing new doctor, and most importantly positive thoughts, Randal and I will be amazing parents one day in the hopefully,

God Willing,

  not too far off future...

stay tuned. 

Excited! #voxbox #mkglambox #influenster

So stoked for this voxbox! 

1.marykay lash love mascara (I❤️Black; $15.00)

2.marykay cream eye color (apricot twist; $14.00)

3.marykay mineral cheek color (shy blush; $12.00)

4.marykay translucent loose powder ($16.00)

5.marykay gel eyeliner with expandable brush applicator (jet black; $18.00) 

6.marykay bronzing powder ($18.00)

7.marykay nourishine plus lip gloss (mango tango; $14.00)

8.marykay cream eye color/concealer brush ($10.00)

9. Bonus powder brush! 

 #voxbox #mkglambox #influenster #marykay #sopumped 

I'm so excited to try all of these products!!Xoxoxo!

I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes

interesting times...

lately i feel like people are...off. 

i don't know if its the way the planets are aligned.

but, people are either sad or grumpy...

and i don't like it.

I've been juicing for about a week

dieting and such.

trying to get this body into 

some sort of healthy.

this is the juicer i bought on Amazon.com

vlog addictions as of this week:

youtube.com/dailyBUMPS

youtube.com/BumpsAlongtheWay

youtube.com/stepstowander
youtube.com/wanderingtoawedding
youtube.com/CTFxC
youtube.com/SHAYTARDS



with love,
lulu
xoxo

Someone's actually reading this!

So after a 12 hour day at work I met up to do a make up exchange, as were leaving she tells me and oh by the way you should start blogging again! I can't begin to tell you how this made my day! Not only did I think no one ever read my blog, but someone was actually enjoying it. Totally exciting to me! So I'm going to make a huge effort to write more often! Thanks again girl! It's very motivating! :) 

And yes I'm selling make up again! 

Xoxo

With love,

Lulu