A little over 3 weeks in

I haven't had a cigarette in 24 days! Which feels great and all but there still hasn't been a full day that I haven't thought about just breaking down and having one. Especially the 3rd or 4th of July....

On July 2nd I was a little confused when I hadn't got my period. It was almost a month late (made a little sense considering its only been 2 months since I got off the pill).that evening i finally started!! I was a little relieved, most definitely not because I don't want to be pregnant, but because I know it's not the right time...a lot of goals still need to be met...health wise, and financially...so anyways, I put my tampon in and went to bed. When I woke up in the morning to get ready for work I went to change it and there was only a drop, which is alarming when you're a month late... Again just figured it was off due to getting off the pill, it's now the morning of the 3rd and I go to work...a little crampy turned into a sharp pain in my lower right side so I go to the bathroom and take out the tampon, I'm pushing like I have to go to the bathroom and a blood clot the size of a golf ball comes out and the pain is gone... I get off work and go home and the pain comes back, this time much much worse, to the point where I'm about to black out, same situation, go to the bathroom and push, this time it's a blood clot the size of a tennis ball and looks very full of tissue. At this point I'm crying because it seems like my worst nightmare come true. After calling the kaiser help line, they tell me to wait it out and go in for a DNC in the morning, ruling out all other options and basically diagnosing a miscarriage over the phone...I went to work the next day (4th of July) and left early to take myself to the urgent care for this procedure...I wait for 2 hours in the waiting room, take a pregnancy test, and it comes back negative, which puzzled me....even if it were a miscarriage, it would still be positive... Wouldn't it? The dr comes in and does a pelvic exam an tells me I had what they call (something like) a negative pregnancy miscarriage? I had a minor DNC...cleaned out and tested. Apparently I have something called bacterial vaginosis and acute vaginitis which basically means since getting off the high hormone bc pill my uterus is in shock and my natural bacterias and chemicals are imbalanced causing my body to think it was pregnant...with absolutely nothing. My dr said and I quote "your uterus is sad"...so...antibiotics for a week.... Yogurt and probiotics for a month and we should be back on track, but I still haven't got a real period.....