it's been a while...

let's catch up.

I've been working A LOT, about 50 hours a week. 

 I've been exhausted and stressed out,

 but with that being said, i still have not smoked a cigarette.

 I've been cig free for 58 days! I am still using the vape, 

but not nearly as much as i was and i cut down the nicotine level.

 I'm very proud of myself. 

at a recent psych appointment i found out you can take 

Zoloft while pregnant which is a pretty huge relief to me,

 they also upped my does to 50mg a day, and i really like the difference,

 i feel really good...well rested even

. I made a huge progression with my baby obsession, 

as badly as i want a baby, i'm not looping on it every day like i was.

 which is a huge relief for me as well. I've decided to try, 

and try being the key word, to enjoy the time i get alone.

 All my life it has been my biggest fear to be alone,

 but in the past few weeks, i'm starting to see the beauty in it..

.im working on it a lot lately but with less pressure on myself...

which has been nice.

Latest obsessions consist of;

peach green tea lemonade from Starbucks
pregnancy vlogs (mostly DailyBumps)
my vape- and the new vape store (Xtreme Vape)

photos of shadows

sleep hypnosis videos...they really work!

you know the usual... 

xoxo

with love,

LuLu